I remember how we had a conversation for the first time. It was just
a game of naughty talk, then it led us to a friendship that most
people would fail to understand, even we
ourselves were not able to reply the “why” questions.
I used to believe what my heart
said, cause I once had denied it and troubles came. But you really really charmed me with your
intelligence and understanding. However, it could not give myself enough
explanation why I could not let you go.
I’ve learned much from my life that
healing myself from the pain of love was much easier, cause pain is part of
love and love never fails to bring pain. So, it’s sensible to me to say, I’m a
tough person for broken-hearted stuff.
However, losing of secure state is another matter. It’s a big
deal. Security and trust are even hurting than being left by your lover. You
can get in love with someone new, though getting broken soon—to start a new
love story again, and again. Sometimes, you can say “ nothing to lose”. But not
with security and trust……It’s not only a matter of “sweet memories” or simply
about the good times we’ve shared together. No way. It’s like….things in your life—not always
your heart, yet mostly your past life, your secret, your dreams, your hopes,
your works, your “everything—are being carried away…especially if security and
trust are your “soul”. Yes, people need security and trust, indeed. But few
people NEED them badly—security and trust are their “soul”, in their
lonesome silent world—where a whisper is just too loud and
hiding secrets is the best way to live with others peacefully—well, struggling
inside, deep in their own soul is just something else.
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